I always considered healing as picking up, moving on, getting over it, coping better, standing taller, being able to smile and say "I'm good. Thanks for asking!" I did not realize that in order to heal you have to face what you are actually scared of. I always thought freedom was a one time destination.... Continue Reading →
Pity Parties in Thunderstorms
Let me tell you a secret about being a stay at home mom. We crave appreciation. CRAVE IT. Whoops, okay, maybe that is taking it too far. Maybe it’s just me? Maybe just once in awhile I would like my seven year old to stand up and sing my praises to the world for finding... Continue Reading →
Lost in Translation
I have had “suicidal thoughts” for the entire length of my depression extravaganza, but I had forgotten what it really felt like to be “done” until recently. The problem is definitions. Suicidal ideation is defined as “thinking about or planning suicide.” I learned early on that you have to really tame what you say when... Continue Reading →
Loving Others as I Have Loved You
I have found that depression and isolation go hand in hand. I have also realized as an extrovert, depression gives me opposite personalities. Amazingly one of the biggest recommendations for depression is putting yourself out there. "Why would I possibly do that when I have nothing to offer right now?" The more I analyze my mood... Continue Reading →