The Trials and Tribulations of a Depressed Christian

I have never been able to do the monkey bars. Ever. I am not sure if my arms are uneven or they are abnormally weak but for whatever reason I just have never been able to conquer the simple playground activity. I get myself into position, take my feet off, ready to swing and grab... Continue Reading →

Pity Parties in Thunderstorms

Let me tell you a secret about being a stay at home mom. We crave appreciation. CRAVE IT. Whoops, okay, maybe that is taking it too far. Maybe it’s just me? Maybe just once in awhile I would like my seven year old to stand up and sing my praises to the world for finding... Continue Reading →

Lost in Translation

I have had “suicidal thoughts” for the entire length of my depression extravaganza, but I had forgotten what it really felt like to be “done” until recently. The problem is definitions. Suicidal ideation is defined as “thinking about or planning suicide.” I learned early on that you have to really tame what you say when... Continue Reading →

The Trenches of Motherhood

Age gaps are peculiar things. I love my girls’ six year age difference. My oldest is the baby’s biggest fan. She cried happy tears for an hour when she found out she was going to be a big sister. To this day she is the first to get excited for any new milestone her baby... Continue Reading →

Loving Others as I Have Loved You

I have found that depression and isolation go hand in hand. I have also realized as an extrovert, depression gives me opposite personalities. Amazingly one of the biggest recommendations for depression is putting yourself out there. "Why would I possibly do that when I have nothing to offer right now?" The more I analyze my mood... Continue Reading →

Praying for Prosperity 

I heard a pastor on the radio recently say, "Stop asking "God, Why me?" And start asking "God, what are you preparing me for?" This simple change in dialect has really changed how I am praying lately.  Depression gets me. Depression has a way of killing all passion and choking out all light in its... Continue Reading →

God Things

I am very young in my faith. I am still a little baby Christian when it comes to experiencing God's glory and provision. When certain "God things" (events, encounters, encouragement that are undoubtedly God) happen I get so excited. I always want to tell people. Supernatural experiences are just cool. In that moment I can... Continue Reading →

A Little Anxiety: A lot of Love

I have always been an anxious, perfection driven person. I have been paralyzed in perfectionism since my youngest was born four months ago and quite frankly I am sick of it. A little back story, I lived in a depressed daze for the first three years of my youngest's life. Three years of constant life... Continue Reading →

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