A Personal Look at Mental Health, Hope, and Change
One of the joys of most mental illness' are their predictability. They either hang out constantly or you know when it's coming. 12 years with depression and I typically know when it is about to show up. Sadness from grief on the other hand is something still very new to me. It has has been... Continue Reading →
Having a family of my own has forced me to look at what my family situation growing up actually looked like. We are now over 8 years into this whole parenting thing and I am realizing it is all just a case of the blind leading the blind. No matter how much we want to... Continue Reading →
My 8 year old is obsessed with watching kids on YouTube review toys. This is a big thing. It is super weird and obnoxious but, it is a big thing. They call these "Toy Unboxings." My daughter has always had a huge love of baby dolls and as a result loves Baby Alive unboxings. If... Continue Reading →
I have never been able to do the monkey bars. Ever. I am not sure if my arms are uneven or they are abnormally weak but for whatever reason I just have never been able to conquer the simple playground activity. I get myself into position, take my feet off, ready to swing and grab... Continue Reading →
I originally was going to start this out with a disclaimer in regard to how much I love my children but ya know what? I am a mother. We all love our children so sorry, not sorry that will not be in the introduction for today. Today I am going to openly discuss the raw... Continue Reading →
Let me tell you a secret about being a stay at home mom. We crave appreciation. CRAVE IT. Whoops, okay, maybe that is taking it too far. Maybe it’s just me? Maybe just once in awhile I would like my seven year old to stand up and sing my praises to the world for finding... Continue Reading →
I have had “suicidal thoughts” for the entire length of my depression extravaganza, but I had forgotten what it really felt like to be “done” until recently. The problem is definitions. Suicidal ideation is defined as “thinking about or planning suicide.” I learned early on that you have to really tame what you say when... Continue Reading →
Age gaps are peculiar things. I love my girls’ six year age difference. My oldest is the baby’s biggest fan. She cried happy tears for an hour when she found out she was going to be a big sister. To this day she is the first to get excited for any new milestone her baby... Continue Reading →
I have found that depression and isolation go hand in hand. I have also realized as an extrovert, depression gives me opposite personalities. Amazingly one of the biggest recommendations for depression is putting yourself out there. "Why would I possibly do that when I have nothing to offer right now?" The more I analyze my mood... Continue Reading →
I heard a pastor on the radio recently say, "Stop asking "God, Why me?" And start asking "God, what are you preparing me for?" This simple change in dialect has really changed how I am praying lately. Depression gets me. Depression has a way of killing all passion and choking out all light in its... Continue Reading →
Taralyn Rowe 