Emerging from the Darkness: A Look at Grief A Year Later

The past year has been a very dark for me. I lost my grandmother whom raised me and somewhere along the way I lost my ability to see light. I was so weighed down my grief and loneliness any glimmer of hope was shortly snuffed out by the clutches of sorrow. As we enter the... Continue Reading →

Just for Today

Back in high school my psychiatrist shared a little nugget of wisdom with me. A big component of inpatient success stems from the idea that there is routine. When our lives are in already feeling out of control routines add an extra barrier of security around a sea of not knowing. Establishing a routine was... Continue Reading →

Unconventional God

My guilty pleasure is pop punk from the early 2000s. Even though I am no longer mad at my father, wear less eyeliner, and blare Kidz Bop 99% of the time, I still find myself bored with conformity. I come from a very unconventional family. My parents are deadheads that still follow the Grateful Dead... Continue Reading →

About the Journey

I have learned a lot about mental illness through first hand experience. I started writing this blog when I was experiencing the worst depression of my life and kind of just settled on the fact that my life was not going to get any better. I accepted a disorder as my identity and shrunk my... Continue Reading →

Walking and Talking

A big goal of mine has been to get back into running. I am not great at it. I run a 16 minute mile on a good day, but it makes me feel good, so I do it anyways. Before I decided to give medication another shot I was constantly drained by the anxiety and... Continue Reading →

Love Endures

My great-grandmother passed away last week and with that heavy on my family's heart I have spent a lot of time reflecting. One of my favorite memories of Grandma Rakes was when we found out I was pregnant with my oldest daughter, Madilyn. To add some context, Eric and I found out we were going... Continue Reading →

Prayer Changes Everything

I believe prayer changes things. When I say "prayer" I do not mean writing "Praying for you" on Facebook and calling it a day. Prayer is not passive. Prayer bridges gaps between the natural and supernatural placing us face to face with our God who is the only one powerful enough to change helpless situations.... Continue Reading →

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