In the span of a year we have dealt with virtual learning, working from home, the loss of my grandfather, selling our first home, purchasing my childhood home, and contracting covid.
Today is my birthday and I’m going to tell you right now, it does not feel like it. This has sucked. I have spent most of my waking hours today in tears just at the sheer amount of stress the past year has thrown our way. I don’t get it. I’m not sure why I am having to go through it, and honestly it is a big reason why I have not written in so long.
I felt like I could not share the promises of God when I was sitting so far into the murk and muddiness that life can be. Grief and trauma has a way of breaking everything own to the absolute smallest parts of what is truly important… And I have been broken. My life has been broken. My view of family, God, forgiveness, and grace have all been broken down to their simplest parts in order to get back to this place of rebuilding.
Piece by piece I have been laying down bits of my life before Him until little by little I pick them up again. The truth is God wants all of us. Our broken pieces, our hurt pieces, the pieces that seem to not make a lick of sense. There is such freedom in leaving them into the care of the Creator and walking into all you are called to be.
Friends, this has been a difficult year but I pray you find your strength and your footing. I pray you know full well that the promises of the Lord are just within reach. 2021 is a year to rebuild and to walk confidently in the fullness of the Lord.
“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed. He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord ’s favor has come, and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory. They will rebuild the ancient ruins, repairing cities destroyed long ago. They will revive them, though they have been deserted for many generations.”
Isaiah 61:1-4 NLT