“I am tired.
I am exhausted.
I am unseen.”
I finished marking in the final period in my journal before folding it closed. “What am I even doing?” How can someone be so tired and overwhelmed while still managing to keep all the plates spinning?
The truth is… She can’t.
I guess somewhere in these ongoing months of seclusion fueled by quarantine I stopped asking God questions and started regressing back into my old ways of coping. I grew comfortable in my stagnancy but never comfortable in the “new normal.”
I recently started designing a sign that says, “Every adventure begins with a first step.” And I let these words pour over and under my fears and depression. I realized it’s okay to only work on one thing at a time. Its okay to prioritize your healing and getting better over everything else because without you “okay” nothing else can be okay.
So… MAKE THAT FIRST STEP.
Sometimes the steps that are hardest to take, the ones we feel too weak to make, are the ones leading to something more beautiful than we could ever imagine.
Pray more, dance more, eat better foods, drink your water, and move your body. Whatever it is for you…just do it. You can’t love people well if you are not loving yourself first. Accept the abundant grace given to you, find His strength in you, and take that first step.
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT