Before and After

I really wish there was a way to really “get” something without having to live through it. Major weight loss was one of those things. I wish someone could have said, “You will be the same person regardless of what the scale says” and I really wish I could have believed it. All in all I am proud of how far I have come on the inside and out but it was a tough journey along the way. It was a tough journey getting to my highest weight and an equally tough journey coming back down… Amazingly enough very little had to do with the scale.

I always thought I was miserable because of how I looked when in reality I was miserable over things I could not change. When I realized what I was responsible for I was able to start loosening my grip on the things I did have control over. I had control over what I put into my body, what I surrounded myself with, and what I chose to believe. I could choose to learn, grow, let go, and live life with purpose or I could be content with wallowing in my own misery for the rest of my days. It is really that simple. How we live is a choice. What we go through, what we experience, how many times we get pushed down, none of that is in our control but we do have the choice to move forward and do things differently.

If I could do it all over again I wish I could tell my younger self about mercy and grace. That on the good days I was loved just as much as my bad and on the days where I messed up more than I thought humanly possible, I was still fully seen, loved, and accepted, no matter what. This goes for you too. You are fully loved, lacking nothing, today, yesterday, and forever more. Nothing you have done, been through, or looked like, will ever define who you are because of whose you are. You are loved, friend. Take that first step today and walk out in freedom.


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  1. I know this is not the point of your post – but kudos on your weight loss. Such a difficult thing to do and to remain consistent. And you did it! Well done.
    I agree with you – it’s so easy to believe the lie that if our outer circumstances change, we will be happier, be able to accept ourselves. But joy and self-acceptance come from knowing the love of Christ, and his love never changes and is not dependent on outside circumstances.
    It would be interesting to read more of what you learned when making this transformation – I believe the ‘practical skills’ of staying consistent, saying no to the wrong things and yes to the right and hard things are skills that will help you in your walk with God as well.
    As someone who is still in the midst of their weight-loss journey I’d also love to know “your secret” and any tips you might have.
    Lots of love,


    1. Sorry for just now responding to your comment. Thank you so much for your kind words! As for my weight loss, I had weight loss surgery in 2014 and lost a majority of my weight eating low carb then switching over to “clean” eating once I got down to my goal weight. Also…a lot of prayer. “God, what will fuel my body to do your purposes today?” Became a really important question for me as well as ” why am I wanting to eat right now?(am I really hungry or just bored?)
      Good luck on your journey! The biggest thing is knowing you can do this ❤️

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