New Year New Vision

New Year’s Eve morning at the sunshiney hour that is 5 am, our oldest flew into our our room screaming, “EMILY’S THROWING UP!!!” Two hours later my husband with bronchitis passed a kidney stone to really start the New Year out right. 🎉🥴

When one of the kids gets sick I automatically turn into some sort of doomsday prepper. I am not sure if it is motherly instinct or just a lesson builiding on nine years experience that we are all going to get this mess so it’s time to work quick.

I immediately started the laundry, did any dishes in the sink, made sure we had Gatorade, popsicles, and any other sick day staples. We put away all of the indoor Christmas directions, got rid of the tree, vacuumed up 500,000 pine needles off the floor…all in record time. We have been stuck in the house ever since.

Last night was my turn, as I was lying in a sick puddle of mush that was my achey, gross, body I began praying and thinking. Thinking about how tired I have been over the course of the last few years, thinking about what I want out of the year, and really asking God what the heck needs to happen for me to live this full, abundant, life he is always talking about. What needs to change, what do I need to make more preparations for so I can actually rest and enjoy a free life? What can I do in my daily life to add more enjoyment to my days so when things get busy I am not completely thrown for a loop?

This month I have started something new, instead of my usual morning journaling/prayer time I wake up and ask God what I need to focus on for the day. Sometimes that means doing the normal stuff  like going grocery shopping to get something of nutritional value versus McDonalds again, some days it has been being more available to play with Calico Critters and to watch dance performances in my living room… then there’s other days where it looks like calling my mother-in-law and begging her to take these precious little children because they have been fighting with eachother all day. In all these days strung together I have realized that our days are indeed short but there is always plenty of time to focus on the important things. That is my goal for 2020 to see the important things more clearly,  to renew my mind everyday by letting his truth wash over all of my broken, overly dramatic, sometimes exhausted, places…and trusting that he will always be there to give me clarity for all of my days.

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
Romans 12:2 NLT